Monday, January 17, 2011

Reflections From 2nd MTC Webcast

Today was a good start to this new approach. I opened my fridge today and saw a barren white fridge. If I am going to make healthy choices and I need to have healthy options available to me. I went to the local health food store to buy some fresh fruits and veggies. Nothing strange or exotic, just the basics...dark green leafy lettuce, tomatoes, bell peppers, mushrooms, cucumber, apples, oranges, bananas, and grapefruit. While there I was trying to decide what changes I can make at meal times that would not only be healthy for me but healthy for the whole family as well. I knew this will be a bit of a challenge as I listened to my 13 year old daughter behind me exclaim "ew, I'm not eating that" or "ew, that's gross."

I watched the second MTC webcast this evening and wow! The Lord just spoke directly to me during this whole webcast. So many things that were on my mind or fears I had were put to rest tonight. One thing that stuck out to me right away was that I need to be a woman of joy and thanksgiving. So many times before when I approached this whole eating healthy thing it was more an act of drudgery. Definitely not something I was joyful about and I was definitely not thankful. Now I can see I can be joyful because I am not doing this just for my physical well being or looks but to have a closer more intimate relationship with God. Who wouldn't be joyful about that! This leads me right into thanksgiving. I am so thankful to the Lord for providing these MTC resources to me. So thankful that he loves me enough not to leave me in this place but to draw me out!

I know right now I am full of rosey optimism and I know there will be some dark days ahead. However, I can be joyful and thankful for those dark days ahead because they will be opportunities for me to draw close to God in prayer and see Him move in my life.

Chapter One Reflections

Chapter One is full of insightful goodies but what really jumped out at me was "we crave what we eat." This hit hard since it let me clearly see what I am putting into my body and mind. I am craving unhealthy food options because this is what I am consuming. I am not just craving them because I have a weak mind or weak body. I have set myself up for these cravings *ouch* It is comforting to know that I am designed by God to have cravings, however my cravings were never meant to be for food but for Him. If I start consuming healthier foods my body will begin to crave those healthier options. If I consume God's Word regularly than I will crave God and this is the goal. To crave God more than anything else.

At the end of Chapter One, Lysa gives us a scripture that she used when resisting cravings, "Everything is permissible'--but not everything is beneficial" (1 Corinthians 10:23). This is a wonderful scripture to keep in  mind. Nothing is off limits but it is up to me to decide if it will be beneficial to my body. After I read this scripture I looked up the cross reference, 1 Corinthians 6:12  "Everything is permissible for me”—but not everything is beneficial. Everything is permissible for me—but I will not be mastered by anything."  This scripture hit me HARD. I do not want to be mastered any longer by food. I will not be mastered by food any longer. 

Then I read the first part of verse 13 "Food for the stomach and the stomach for food—but God will destroy them both." This is powerful for me. God is going to destroy both food and stomach so why do I want to be controlled by something that is going to be destroyed by God? I also have to ponder, if I cling to my stomach and cravings for food, do I run the risk of being destroyed right along with them? Maybe not in the spiritual sense since I know I am saved by the blood of Jesus Christ, however this makes me wonder just what part of me will be destroyed if I continue to cling to the sinking ship of food.

Bottom line I will crave what I consume and I want to crave God.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Why am I doing this?

About 2 weeks ago I received an email from a friend from church letting me know that there was going to be a webcast for Made to Crave. She wanted to see if anyone would be willing to go on this journey with her. To be honest I groaned inside. I had seen this book at the local Christian book store and on Amazon and made every possible effort to avoid it. I made every rationalization in my head as to why I didn't even need to bother reading the back cover of this book.

However, God had other plans. I tried to avoid my friend's email. I even deleted it so I wouldn't have to look at the subject line in my inbox. After a few days though, I found myself doing a search in my deleted folder searching for that email. And then I did the most horrible thing...I replied "I'm In!" I tried not to panic. After all, all I really did was commit to watch the webcast, right?

Well I watched that webcast, listened to Lysa TerKeurst speak, and heard God speaking loud and clear. After the webcast I excitedly emailed my friend. We emailed each other what had spoken to us during the webcast and I rushed out and bought the book. Now I find myself doing an online study of Made to Crave on Melissa Taylor's blog.

I did today's homework assignment, reading the introduction of Made to Crave and the Lord just confirmed everything all over again. I have the "how to" I just need the "want to." I need to stop making excuses for my weight, be HONEST with myself admit that my weight is a direct reflection of the choices I make.

I decided to keep a blog for this journey, maybe it will last only as long as the study or maybe it will go beyond that. This will be for the Lord to decide. What I type here though I will be posting to the Melissa Taylor's blog during the online study. I pray that everyone who is doing this Made to Crave (MTC from now on) study hears God speaking to them and finds God's strength and power to make the changes that are needed in their lives BUT most of all, learn to crave God most of all.